I had chased my career and next high for so long that I had no connection with my feelings or who I was. Growing up I craved love and affection from my emotionally distant and driven parents, and I ended up with a massive void in my heart. This led me into doing everything for attention, no matter the consequences and in all the wrong places. My rebellious teens led me to becoming a young mother, but I carried on. Entering the “jetset life” of the media world, I slipped into drugs and alcohol and before I knew it I was using alone daily while trying to uphold my mask. I hit rock bottom when I ended up lashing out at my kids just like I had displeased my father for doing in my childhood. Who had I become? See how I was faced with the brutal “truth” of who I was in the eyes of those around me, in my final rehab. This forced me to sit with the consequences of my addiction and I realized that I had to take responsibility for my actions. Learn how I dared to be vulnerable and truthful in that setting and how this finally allowed me to reconnect and learn how to express my emotions. This process created space for me to get to know my family again and with it I found their support. My peer support group and sponsor gave me the sense of belonging I had lingered for my whole life and with it I managed to create the person I wanted to be without the drugs and alcohol. A person that wants to spread awareness about my journey and create through my passion for radio and media.