In search of love and acceptance, I ended up lost in my destructive patterns. Growing up I was bullied for being different and for being closer to girls, and the older I got the more I couldn’t pretend anymore and I just had to move away. In my new city I found a gay community that helped me explore my sexuality, but with my suppressed emotions and need for love leading the way my actions quickly turned more and more destructive. Eventually, I ended up feeling lonelier and less loved even though I felt accepted. See how I dared to open up and how this led me to seek professional help. I started my journey of self-discovery, facing suppressed emotions and slow healing of my self-worth, but the following years took me on a roller coaster ride and it seemed my deeper sense of unworthiness followed me. Learn how I turned to professional help once again and how this finally helped me move beyond my destructive patterns. Now I use my experiences to remind me of the journey I have traveled to become the man I am today.